Breaking up

This past week has been eventful, really hard though, let me tell you breaking up is not an easy thing to do its just hell really there isn't any other words to describe it you know, i have been angry and mad and then i cry and am sad and then i miss him and want to be back with him, but then i dont its just all these up and down emotions that go back and forth it is just so hard, i hate it i hate hurting people especially one's that you become so close to and you learn to love so deeply and there family, it is just so hard, i dont know when i will ever see landon again, i do miss him he was so wonderful to me always treated me like a princess, never ever fought and would always take everything that i said in the best way possible never in the wrong way, now how many guys can do that, barely any its crazy how patient and kind he is and how well he understands me. Now breaking up is so hard to do in the first place and a lot of times it is the girl who initiates it, but landon made it so much easier for me he understood what i was saying he didn't try to fight me or win me back by telling me all this mumbo jumbo, he looked at teh big picture and decided you know what she is right, i myself am not ready either, and i know he is being so strong right now. i still love him but when your not ready for something you can't lie to yourself you must do what is best for you and what makes you the happiest in the end, i try to live life without regrets but you know it isnt always possible but i do what i can, i know that this was the best decision for me right now and i know that i will be blessed for it, and so will ladnon for understanding me and wanting me to be happy whatever happens happens you know!