Today is the first day of the rest of my life, really that is said by many people everyday, but i do believe that each day is a new start. I Have recently been engaged to w wonderful guy who makes me so happy, but i also have recently called the engagement off, I love him, but i have so much more growing up to do. Marriage is a huge step in life and one that shpoudlt be taken until you are fully ready. Its a huge reponsibility, but it is also a beautiful thing, for a man and a women to love each other so much that they exchange vows and covenants to be with each other for the rest of their mortal lives and then to make covenants with the lord to Love each other for the rest of eternity. So amazing and so exiting, but there is a time and a place in everyones life, mine just isn't right now, and i am so exited for what the future might bring for me, and who knows we might still make it together, and if that day comes we will be so ready to take on the challenges of marrige because we did it at the right moment. But also who knows my handsome prince charming could be someone else the lord knows, and i have faith in him and whatever happens happens for a reason.
Now speaking of the future what is in store for me at this moment, what are my dreams? well i have many but for a few right now i really want to be excepted into film school wether it is in colorado or salt lake city. i want to truly do what i love, yes i love BYU-Idaho, but i wasn't pursuing something that i truly loved, my all time dream is to be a teacher, but getting there i will have to do things that i just dont like, but right now is my time to live and be happy, right now is my time to just start all over with a clean slate and let my creative mind explode and do somehting that i am good at, somthing that makes me happy, I know that i can do anything i put my mind to i love life im tired of being miserable and sad, im tired of messing up and feeling so low about myself, we only have one chance in this life to be the best we can be, and to everyday be a little better, work a little harder and love a little more. Life comes at you fast and if you dont swing you will strike out.
Other things that i want to do, i wnat to buy a truck, just a small one like a little toyota tacoma or a chevy colorado, thatose things are sweet, but i know that i have to work hard and believe that i can have it, i have to visulize it, and put it out there that i will own one someday. Life is so wonderful! seriously im tired of feeling sorry for myself and being sad, its just to much energy and a waist of time, im just going to have faith that the lord will provide and i am going to pray a whole lot!!
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